Xavier- Stupidity

Dear Experiment 327,

Hearing you say how much this means to you means so much to me. The fact that I can make even the smallest difference is absolutely amazing. I will be perfectly honest with you; I love getting your letters. I love hearing from you. Maybe I'm hanging onto the past, but it's almost like.. I need this. I always felt so alone, and even though I left I still feel alone. Maybe I'm being a little selfish, I don't know. But I just need to hear someone else's voice. I need to know there's someone out there, who's in the same position I was. And if I can do anything to help, then maybe I haven't lived for absolutely nothing.

I guess it might seem that way, but I'm not strong willed at all haha. I feel like sometimes I just give up so easily. I try not to deal with problems, so most of the time I'll just joke around to try and avoid it. If someone brings up the topic of the facilities, I'll crack a joke and then change the subject. I'm not strong willed, I'm stupid. I just happened to be the right kind of stupid. Maybe that's what's been keeping us alive this whole time. Stupidity.

I can imagine what that must be like. No- rather, I know what that feels like. I felt it every day. I want this burden to go away, but how do I make it go away? How do I erase an entire childhood? I'm not happy. I'll never be happy until I get rid of this, and it'll never go away. This is the life I live- what you and I live.

That firey will- don't let it go away. I'll be honest with you, even if you get out you'll never forget it. You'll always remember it. But being out here is so much better than being there. Yes, I have to live with the memories. But I never have to live with the pain again. That's what I wish for you. I want you here, with the rest of us humans. Surviving. Together. So don't let that fire go away. Let it burn, let it grow. Let it fester. Become obsessed.

You have a very interesting power. Don't be stupid like me and loose it. But I hate hearing that the Government has you on display, it breaks my heart. Please do not push yourself just to try and write to me. I'm not worth it.

You do not remember your name? I was able to remember mine. But I have heard of many people forgetting theirs. It's definitely not uncommon. You are interested in hearing about me? That's surprising. I'm much more interested in hearing about you and how you're doing. Even on a normal daily basis. But I don't mind talking to you about me at all. For once I'm not nervous about telling someone else about how I'm doing and about my life.

No, I'm not alone. I travel with a woman, she's a really good friend. Things are alright for me now. I have many nightmares, but things are okay. I'm much happier than I was in the facility, which is a plus. I have not crossed paths with anyone else like us. I wish I had, but I have not. I can not think of anything else I could possibly share, though. What would you like to know?

Haha, you're right about that. They've always been impatient. What is it that they want this time?

-Xavier